You ever get those moments where you're just happy? For me it's this delightful content jump in the pit of my stomach, an intuitive feeling that everything is all right, and the gateway to an invisible smile lurking at the back of my head where no one can see it but where I know it's glowing, reflecting out of my eyes until it breaks across my face too. I just had that moment. My heart gave a happy jump and I was just in perfect contentment. I'm sitting at my computer in the kitchen (the heart and soul of our house), Friends is on TV, chicken with soy sauce is cooking, and my mommy is upstairs playing with the cat. I know my dad will be home later and that my sister will be here tonight and that we'll be watching Up and it just made me happy. I don't know how to describe it other than this feeling of pure joy. It's physical too, a quick thudding lurch in my chest, but a good one. No spikes just kind of a pleasant nausea even if that sounds like an oxymoron. It helps me see all the possibilities I have ahead of me, all the love I have around me, and all the hope life is giving me. It's sappy and kind of stupid but it's just this pure white light energy that washes over me. I wish that feeling would last longer but it's like a brief natural ecstatic high for me and it's a good thing I don't do drugs because that's what I assume the feeling is that addicts chase.
I also read the best book my internship has provided me with so far. I'm not allowed to discuss any of them but this one's message spoke directly to me. Life is too short to be indecisive. I loved it, and it's definitely getting a "recommend" from me when I send in my coverage. I hope it gets published and that I can smugly say I had a part in it. Tonight, I'm reading the first film script they sent me and perhaps catching up on writing up about tasks.
Until then, here are pictures that make me happy.